Friday, December 30, 2011

Hearts and Healing

It broke my heart.
It broke my heart to have to move away from you because I was losing myself.
It broke my heart.
It broke my heart to understand that my heart needed to be broken by you.
It broke my heart.
It broke my heart to not feel strong enough to save you.
It broke my heart.
It broke my heart, I don't blame you, I don't blame me...
It broke my heart
It broke my heart and scattered it into the universe.

It's sad to think I will always be alone, but not as sad as it was when I first thought it... the pain subsides as the reality sets in. And through all this I smile and feel more love for ALL than I have ever felt in my life.

A broken heart, healing is a gift from God.

Scorpions - Wind of change

Friday, December 23, 2011

Illusion's Mirror




Do not fall for me
I am not what will replenish you,
I am an illusion built in to remind you,
Do not fall for me,
I will not be able to give you what you need,
I am just a rumination of you.
Do not fall for me,
I am not worthy of such divine love,
In the looking glass of life.
Do not fall for me,
I can’t pick you up.
I am only an expression of you.
Do not fall for me
I am only a mirror,
Reflecting you,
Illusion.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Weave the Cocoon

Women,
We wind our cocoon so tightly, engulfing our little ones and living in peace as we create our children’s lives,
We hold everyone so close and let go of our self so much that we forget who we are.
This is how it should be.
Winding the threads of our nest, knitting and sewing and encircling and feeling the joy of the moment.
We thrive, we weave, we thread, we get lost in our ability to create our nest.
Forever the weavers of dreams, hopes, love, happiness, fulfillment, enlightenment.
Not for ourselves, but for those around us,
Those that we “love”,
Those that we hold dear.
We can do this for anyone, but we choose to weave our nests tightly,
Encompassing the ones we focus our attentions on,
Encompassing everyone that we see,
Encompassing the world,
Encompassing the universe,
Encompassing our self
Again,
Rinse and repeat.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Brown Door



The Brown Door
There is a brown door that separates the us from the them.
We have been on both sides of that door.
We have lived on both sides of that door.
We have cried on both sides of that door.
We have learned, there are no us and them,
It’s just a door, and it can open.
There is a brown door that separates the us from the them.
It doesn’t separate the pain.
It doesn’t separate the strain.
It doesn’t separate the brain.
We’ve been on both sides of that door,
We can turn the handle,
We can push the door open,
We can step over the threshold,
Come on over,
Let’s hug.
It’s scary on both sides.
To our understanding,
That’s the key.
It doesn’t have to be.
Just Push.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Weep Like A Willow


Do not weep for me Weeping Willow
Weep for the long years of suffering
Weep for the misunderstandings of why we are here,
Weep for the lost and the broken
Weep for the loves lost
Weep for the earth and the flowers and the trees

Weep for the sky we torture with our blindness
Weep for the river we pollute with our carelessness
Weep for the ground we abuse with our emptiness
Weep for the animals we kill, including ourselves
You stand so lovely and silently weeping,
I touch you and you are cold,
Alone, Weeping and Cold
And yet you stand,
A tribute in how to weep.
I will Weep like a Willow.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Music to my Inbox

I am the conductor of the copier orchestra,
Just watch my masterful touch.

The copier plays its scanning tunes with a flick of my wrist,
to lead the notes and such.

Jam sessions rock my socks.
It's music delights my in box.

Friday, November 25, 2011

Holding Up



I held you up.
While I was crumbling and collapsing,
with the weight of us.
I held you up.
When I begged you to see my frailty,
You laughed, "What are you trying to be, smart?"

I was never the victim.
I was the willing partner to lifting you up
Until I fell so far and so hard that I landed,
In God's heart.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Finite Days

We only have so many days.
The actual number is a haze.
But, they are finite.

Spend one day recovering from another day's play.

Spend one day showing someone the way.

Spend one day helping another one's pain.

Spend one day relaxing and feeling drained.

Spend one day dancing in the rain.

Spend one day trying to keep sain.

Spend one day that you don't have to explain.

Spend one day filled with a plan.

Spend one day with a woman or a man.

Spend one day cooking in a pan.

Spend one day, but don't count the days till the end.

Just spend one day because you have it to spend.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Light Bulb Moments



As writers, we are all afraid of plagiarism. Being accused of taking someone else's work and calling it your own just horrifies the writer. We like to feel that our thoughts are our own.

Beneath this fear is the truth of what we are really afraid of, the fear that we have nothing original or unique to contribute. The reality is: Everyone does!

It's been said over and over again in billions of different ways but you still may have in you that one way of saying something that truly connects with another spirit. That is what it's all about.

That light bulb moment.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Pieces of a Puzzle

We are all just pieces of an extremely intricate puzzle. Each piece just as important as the next. Some pieces are big, strong, wordy. Other pieces are small and simple. No piece can be whole without the rest.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Stationary

I had a thought that my words were not my own.
But, who’s are they? Who else is sitting here typing,
Wondering who’s writing down these thoughts.
And is it allowed to say them aloud?
Who’s in charge of who says what when to whom?
Not me, my words are not my own.
My words are not for me,
They are for you.
I give them to you, free and clear.
Enjoy them. Please. I don’t want them anymore once they come out.
Spilling across the page like wet, warm liquid,
Soaking up the paper and devouring it.
The paper is what I want,
Crisp, clean, unused, ready to be written,
Always, I have loved stationary,
For as long as I can remember,
Pen Pals,
hours spent looking at the stationary in the drug store,
All the different kinds,
Thicker, thinner,
Floral, Festive,
Fun.
Paper-clean, white ready to be used.
It’s going away,
Paper is..
Soon.

Think of me as a piece of paper,
Crisp, clear, ready to be written,
That is what I want to be,
Just a piece of paper,
Waiting for your masterpiece.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Forced Draft

I am not a fan, I am forced draft,
An uplift in a time when you might need it.
Wind lifting the sails in your raft.

Wings, Planes, Blades, deltas,
Vane, section, blower, fin.

Bare, naked, alive and raw
Living like I have never lived,
Living out loud and proud.
Inspired.

Not hiding behind the lies,
The masks,
Not hiding behind the lies,
And tasks.

Letting the coursing hot blood flush my face,
And living anyway, without disgrace.
You will not shame me into not being who I am,
Ever again.

You are a mean, cruel and heartless man,
Oh send me there ..again and again,
With your pictures that speak to me,
Of burning passion, of tingling and laughing,
And of a quiet wanting,
An endless need,
Send me there again, and again, and again..
You heartless man.

Please.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

The River of Pain





I am not afraid of the river of pain,
the sinking feeling;
the drowning lost whirling,
It comes to me and I flow with it now,
and do not fight.

I relish the place that it takes me,
I wait for it,
To make me whole.

The cuts from the sharp river bottom,
that make me bleed,
Cringe at my base earthly parts of me,
Who I am under the mask,
So ugly and real,
so unabashedly raw and animal.

I feel very small,
Like a tiny speck of nothingness,
My head drops and I feel the rush of sadness,
sweeping over me;
taking my breath away,
realizing that is all there will ever be.

My disappointment in myself,
for my complete abandon,
My ability to fumble and disgrace myself,
My every move, my unbelievable aptitude at being stupid.

I am unashamed
and naked to it
rolling with it,
coursing through.

It reminds me of all I will never be,
To you.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Where I am kneaded the Most

When I am done here,
I want to go where I am kneaded the most.

Let my energy flow through the river and into the sea.

Let my energy flow into the wind and through the breeze.

Let my energy flow up to the sun to warm and delight.

Do not mourn me,
I will be where I am kneaded the most.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Napkins and Toilet Paper

We have a napkin
and toilet paper
and say we are civilized.

In the meantime,
we can't even
look into each other's eyes.

We have buses, trains, planes
and fancy cars with gears,
but we ignore each others
need for ears.

How civil of you
to ignore me.
How kind of you
to exploit me.

Who is ignorant?
The wise man with all the cash,
or the cashier who depends on
the abundance of nature's stash?

God knows the answer
that's why he said
the meek shall inherit.

It's not without merit,
that people who make the laws
abuse them for their own gain.

Where it will get them is plain,
...to the ignorant and the meek,
who have humbled themselves to the richs of heaven.

Don't think that giving it all away in the end,
will earn you a place when the light starts to bend.

Start with compassion, kindness
humility and grace.

End with nothing but a smile on your face.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Random Tuesday

On some random Tuesday,
I may write the poem of my heart,
On some random Tuesday,
I may find a place to start,

On some random Tuesday,
I may heal.
On some random Tuesday,
Again, I may learn to feel,

On some random Tuesday,
I will overcome the pain,
On some random Tuesday,
Things will start again,

On some random Tuesday,
You may see me new,
On some random Tuesday,
We will not feel blue.

On some random Tuesday,
A song will be created,
On some random Tuesday,
We will be satiated,

On some random Tuesday,
Someone will die,
On some random Tuesday,
Someone will come alive.

On some random Tuesday,
I will think of you.
On some random Tuesday,
You will think of me too.

On some random Tuesday,
You will call,
On some random Tuesday,
We will have it all.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Sweet and Pungent

I want to be the blessed meal for your soul,
Let me show you a love so true,
I will be the blessed feast,
That carries love from my breast to yours.
Take small bites and savor gently the sweet tastes,
Knowing that this spirit cannot be replaced.

I want to be the wine that slides gently past your lips,
Let me pour my love out on you,
Smoothly and with hearty flavor, you drink me in,
Feeling the sting and the power of my fermenting,
Drunk with the pungent fragrance and sweetness.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

I Smiled at You This Morning

I smiled at you this morning,
You were standing there,
Waiting on the bus,
Among about 8 people,
Mostly, not looking outward,
Focusing inward,
I smiled at you this morning.
You smiled back!

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Walk Away

The hardest thing I ever had to do,
Was walk away from you.

The day I did,
I walked away from myself too.

I walked away from the part of me that I could never understand,
The part of me that didn’t want to be my friend.

I didn’t walk away from all of you,
Just the part that you didn’t know,
Just the part that was lost in the dark,
Just the part, not the whole of you.

You’ll always be in my heart,
That brilliant side,
That wonderful, dependable, smart,
Healthy, happy you.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Like the Sun, You Shine.

I need you in my life,
Because, I love you.
You remind me that love is not meant to be “had”,
It is meant to be given,
As I give it to you,
I feel it in return,
From so many,
I want you in my life forever,
Please stay for a while,
Please allow me to feel you,
In my heart and in my smile.

You are my light,
As I wanted to be yours,
You are mine.
You help me shine,
I didn’t know that when I met you,
But you’ve entranced me since the feast!
I love you.

You are not mine alone,
You are for so many,
You could never be just for one,
Like the Sun, you shine for any,
Who have a need,
Who can’t find love,
Who are in pain,

My heart is yours,
Its always been.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Almost

My first published open mic video..thank you to my good friend, Matthew Presley for taking it. Great job! Also, thank you to Joe Dinki for the wonderful words! :)

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Entropy - From http://entropydefinition.com/

Copying these words so I can read this more thoroughly later. This word has been coming into my life a lot lately...I like this definition because it also tells the human/normal/lay person's views of the word.

Now I know why it is important..from this article..thank you www.entropydefinition.com.

"TRY TO REDUCE THE DISORDER THAT WE CAUSE DAILY"

I love words.


Entropy – a word that sounds scientific, technical and confusing, isn’t it? Yes it is. At least the definition says so. But no one wants to know what a thing means, the sole concern is how it matters in our lives. And yes, you found the right corner of the web. The word might sound somewhat specialized but is having deeper meanings. Going by the definition, entropy means anything, or rather that form of energy that cannot be used for any useful work. A lot of scientists and engineers have blabbered a lot about this. Some of them found this relating to the second law of thermodynamics, some of them are still involved in finding newer domains and some will keep killing their time discovering anything related to entropy that might fetch them a Nobel. Not here. We are not reading this article because we are science lovers or engineers or professors. There are a lot of shelves in the libraries with piles of sheets related to this topic only.

We are common people. Entropy should be understood in a way that it looks more practical to our day to day lives and more feasible to approach towards. Let’s create a definition of our own. Entropy can well be defined as the lack of order that gradually results into a disorder or decline. Now more like it, isn’t it? This lack of order can be anywhere; in some silly car engines, some never stopping radiators, or in a more prominent subject – our lives. This is what drives us; Order. This is what results us to find a day off to have some time alone. This is what allows us to find some time to read articles like these. An order drives the personality of an individual. It drives a human being. And it is not difficult to understand that this lack of predictability only is the sole reason for every chaos we are a part of.

Entropy might have found a newer scientific definition today, but it has been there on this planet since the evolution of life. This disorder was the only reason why this only lively planet of the entire solar system had to witness two of the greatest wars. This disorder only was the prime reason of the great mishap of 9/11. US still need to recover from that economic blow. The disorder is somewhere there – deep down our inner self. This is the reason of all the disorder in one’s life.

We never blame our self for the mess we made out of our lives. Everyone finds a shoulder to shoot from, to blame everyone else but himself. There is this entropy present in every single individual on Earth. This lack of order is resulting into more disorder. Thinking about the impacts that this entropy has left in this human race, it is better I stop myself now. The unfortunate events will take millions of words to be written on paper. What is more feasible is to remain intact to the original definition and try to reduce the disorder we cause daily.

The website says: Devoloped by Technonile Information Systems. I want to be sure to give full credit to this site. Wish I knew the author!

Monday, July 18, 2011

It's Not That Kind of Love

It's not that kind of love.
It's the kind that when I think of you,
I wish there was more I could do.

It's the kind that knows with a certainty true,
That our love is the most violet shade of blue.

It's the kind of love that words make useless.
It's the purety of heart that flows into the river of always.

It's the kind of love that is like a stitch,
And binds us together in the fabric of life.

How to say goodbye?
Stick a needle in my eye.
It would hurt less.

Friday, July 15, 2011

Thursday, July 14, 2011

The Word Spoken at Derby City Espresso [Downtown]

I spoke my pieces at this event. Great Venue and wonderful people. If you click on the link you will see a picture of the performers (including me!). :) Enjoy the article...

The Word Spoken at Derby City Espresso [Downtown]

I believe





I believe

I believe in the things unseen,

I believe in the feelings in my soul,

I believe the clouds have eyes.

I believe what we think is real, are lies.

I believe in the tingle in my heart,

I believe it’s all there to see,

I believe the spiral connects,

I believe we all know this,

I believe we forget.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Fishing


Fishing

The hook, the bobber, the sinker, the pole
The lines, the tension, the string, the goal,
Early rising, into the morning,
The mist of the river floats softly to the shore,
The crisp water snapping with life,
The intimate action of stringing the pole,
Preparing it for the day,
Readying the rod in anticipation of the cast,
Bringing in goodness for sustenance,
Fulfilling,
Feelings of triumph,
Feelings of joy,
Feelings of love,
Reeling it in.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Back and Forth



I go back and forth in my life right now. Sometimes I feel that I want a companion to talk to, tell the little things and listen to them, a natural give and take. Not having that for so long has been difficult. Even when I was in my past relationship I didn't have that because it was always about him, his life, his addictions, what he wanted to do and how he felt. I took all of my emotions and put them aside and never dealt with them.

You cannot turn away from yourself so long and not have consequences. The belittling, the pain of not being listened to, the general dislike, the negativity, the drug use, the verbal abuse, the manipulation and the narcissism it all creates the perfect storm and an incredible implosion when reality sets in.

But this time, I will find a companion who is not lost in what drugs he can take and what dress he can pick out to make himself feel better. I will pick someone who is like me, who feels better when they know that the person that they're with is happy and feels good. And, they have enough self left in them to appreciate someone else like I will appreciate them! I will find someone who believes every day, waking up and sharing another day together is the most precious gift.

I am not saying I am perfect but I have a positive attitude, a strong mind and I understand the importance of loving. I understand clearly, you must give love to receive it. Also, when you don't receive it back, have enough kindness for yourself to move on. Everyone deserves love and respect. It starts with loving and respecting yourself.

I miss the most just having someone to call and say, "Hey, can you listen to me, can you just hold me for a minute until I feel better". That soft place for a soul to fall. That is what I've been missing and yearning for in my life for many years now. That was the void I was trying to fill.

It's not just going to be any "body" though. This time around, I am going to give myself and the other person the time we need to understand and know each other. While I am looking I am going to practice patience and kindness. I am not going to have expectations. I am just going to observe and learn.

So, I go back and forth..sometimes appreciating my time alone and other times, like when the darkness sets in, hugging my pillow and lost in my tears...

I'll get through this, you just watch.. I am strong and proud of myself and I love myself. I've come a long way baby! I forgive my past and move forward with faith and love.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Independence Day


I had a dream last night 7/4/2011

I was driving my car really fast and came up to a bank and flew across it, just like in the big action movies. I stopped because another car was also moving fast and didn’t make it. I got out and went over to help them out.

Lying in a ditch were a man and a woman and two boys. The boys were babies. When I went down in the ditch and tried to help them. The female said she was from South Africa and the male said he was from Australia. They were here in the U.S. together but they didn’t want anyone to know they were together. I helped them get their son. I thought I saw two children but they said there was only one.

After I went to help them to go to the hospital I got in my car to leave. In the car was the other boy. He had Downs Syndrome and I thought he was dead. His little body was bloated and blue. I handed him to the paramedics. They thought he was dead too. But, as I handed him over there was a tiny bit of movement. We were all surprised. They worked hard and were able to bring him to life again.

He went to the hospital and got well. I adopted the little boy and then had the flash of my life playing out with him and how much fun we had. He was a gift to me from the couple who only wanted their healthy son.

Freud said that people in your dreams are representative of yourself. The young baby who almost died and has Down Syndrome is me. It is the part of me that almost died when I was living under a cloud of dust that was not meant for me to live under.

Now that the cloud of dust has dissipated and is gone from my life, I can be the person I want to be. I can laugh, play and enjoy my life in the peace that is meant for all to enjoy their life. I can embrace who I am and what I believe and not have to live under the thumb of another’s dreams, beliefs and ideals.

This day is really my independence day.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Peaches




My heart has the tenderest spot for even the peach that happens to fall from the tree.
We are all like the peaches,
There are so many of us.
Some with worm holes,
Others grown on a branch that gets broken,



Still others left on the vine to rot.
I would rather be the fruit, tenderly eaten with love,
Than be the fruit that goes to waste in the garden.
Let me be the fruit that is enjoyed to my fullest,
Before my return to this earth.
We are all from the earth and go back to the earth,
While we are hear may our fruit be the sweetest and most loving.
And may every bite be enjoyed!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Inside of Me


There is a secret place inside of me.
It is quiet and graceful;
Touched by the love & light of angels.

This soft & wonderful garden
Reflects out to the world around me.
It creates the beauty in every touch,
smell, sound, feeling, and vibration.

There is always beauty to be found in everything.
First it starts in the dark quiet place inside each of us.

Monday, June 20, 2011

The Moment Of Peace...

Jorma Kaukonen with Tom Hobson - Genesis - Quah (1974)

This is a nice one..hadn't heard it in a while...

Peter Paul and Mary, 500 Miles

Lord I'm One, Lord I'm two, Lord I'm Three, Lord I'm four...Lord, I'm 500 miles from my home.


Sunday, June 19, 2011

One Father



One father sits by his daughter’s bedside;
And reads a story.
One father sits beside his daughter’s hospital bed;
And provides comfort.
One father works hard all day;
And provides food and shelter.
One father teaches a child to ride his bike;
And provides support.

One Father watches it all;
And smiles.


One father beats his son until there are bruises;
And causes scars for life.
One father drinks until he no longer can differentiate between right and wrong;
And rapes his daughter.
One father abandons his son or daughter;
And leaves a hole forever.

One Father watches it all;
And a tear slips down His cheek.

What can one father do?
What kind of father are you?
Is it hard to read what one father could do?
Is it hard to see the choice is in you?

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Prayer of St. Francis,(Make Me A Channel of Your Peace) sung by Angelina...

And to love as to love with all my soul...
Make me a channel of your peace..

This is beautiful.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Ian Brown - Sister Rose - Lyrics

Free That Girl,
The One That Glows She Knows,
She Rules The World,

Free That Girl,
The One That Glows She Knows,
She Rules The World,

She Said Call Me Sister Rose,
I’m At War With All These Posers And These Frauds,
I Want ‘Em Out,
Let Freedom Reign,
Let Hope Stand Firm On Fields Of Doubt,

Then She Led Me By The Hand,
And Took Me To The Promised Land,

Free That Girl, The One That Knows She Glows, She Rules The World,

She Said I’m Just Like A Rose,
I’m Beautiful And I Can Hurt You With My Thorns,
Don’t Squeeze Too Tight,
‘Cos I Can Blow Up In Ya Face Like Dynamite,

She Said Call Me Sister Rose,
I’m At War With All These Posers And These Frauds,
I Want ‘Em Out,
Let Freedom Reign,
Let Hope Stand Firm On Fields Of Doubt,

Then She Said Take Me By The Hand,
As I Can Lead You To The Promised Land,

She Said I’m Just Like A Rose,
I’m Beautiful And I Can Hurt You With My Thorns,
Don’t Squeeze Too Tight,
‘Cos I Can Blow Up In Ya Face Like Dynamite,

She Said I’m Just Like A Rose,
I’m Beautiful And I Can Hurt You With My Thorns,
Don’t Squeeze Too Tight,
‘Cos I Can Blow Up In Ya Face Like Dynamite,

Van Morrison - In The Garden

This song means something to me. I don't share it a lot and haven't listened to it in a while... but it came up today..

In the garden...

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Carly Simon - You're So Vain

You walked into the party like you were walking onto a yacht...

You had one eye in the mirror...


Monday, June 6, 2011

Sunday, June 5, 2011

3,5,1,0

 


Into the room,
So small she lay;
Silent, sleeping, fragile;
Upon Waking;
The pain and torment in her eyes
“5 Times” She said,
This is the 5th,
“I thought I wouldn’t make it”.
3 months, 5 times,
3 months,
5 times
1 life.
No.
0.
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Friday, June 3, 2011

Bobbie Gentry - Ode To Billie Joe

It was the third of June another sleepy duster down today..I was out chopping cotton and my brother was bailing hay....

Way Over The Rainbow: The Donkey In The Well!

I wanted to share this story.. to remind all of us to keep shaking off the dirt...


Way Over The Rainbow: The Donkey In The Well!: "This is one of my favorite stories. One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tri..."

Friday, May 27, 2011

The Verve-Bittersweet Symphony Lyrics

The dream where we are blending in peacefully was so very nice.
My simplicity might be an asset,
I do not have to be a complex being to be perfect in the eyes of God,
God enjoys simplicity.

It makes me sad to be so simple,
I always wanted to be so profound,
Simplicity to means means stupidity,
Plain & Simple.

But maybe I am easy to understand
And that's okay after all.
Why should I cry about being simple,
I can't change my mold,
And He likes it.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Surrender, Surrender...




I will always surrender to love.
Thank you for your wisdom and strength,
Thank you for guiding me in your firm way.
I appreciate everything about you, dark and light.
I send you my love and admiration always.

Please remember, that I will always be a kind place to fall,
As you have been for me,
Even with your kind toughness,
It is what I need.

I love you.

Filter Bubbles..wow.

A Thousand Years - STING

Monday, May 16, 2011

Honest as the Day is Long Junior Samples

Killing Me Softly - Roberta Flack - Lyrics

And there he was this young boy, a stranger to my eyes...

NEVER EVER GIVE UP IN LIFE !! ..Derek Redmond

Think different

The ones that are crazy enough to think they can change the world, do~!
I am crazy enough to change the world..!
Mine! :) First...

Elvis Presley His hand in mine.

And if I fall, I know He'll understand.
Till the day He tells me why He loves me so, I can feel His hand in mine, that's all I need to know.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Line Across the Moon

There is a line across the moon tonight;
It divides the light from light;
Two sides of the same;
Yet different in name;
Both content in where they are;
Connected not near or far;
One chooses commerce and cacophonic noise;
The other strolling on the aesthetic line;
Walking, working, wandering, writhing, writing;
This is perfectly sublime.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Holy Alchemy of the Apathetic Soul

The Alchemy of your soul
Trans muter of Dreams
Vehicle of life
Boat that carries you to the safer shore
Liver of Life
Allowing;
Flowing
Nurturing;
Strengthening
Blessing quietly with forbearance and fortitude
Stouted-hearted and solid;
Steady,
Complete,
Silence.

The tree that you lean your head on for a moment of quiet sustenance,
Feeling the strength;
Spirit building up,
Tolerance with reserve
Free Standing
With Esteem in the unattachment,
You learn to become,
Knowing the fragility of life;
Understanding vulnerability,
And heed the dispensation,
The sanctity of neutrality is the clearing of duality.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Friday, April 29, 2011

Caterpillars

Caterpillars across the depth,
Off,
Wiggling along,
What guides them?
How do they know where they go?
Another pillar doesn't even,
much attention pay.
Just wiggle, wiggle, wiggle,
All day.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Spirals to Heaven

Lying unsheathed on the cold stone,
Through thin artifical garment,
swirling above they dance,
in the energy of my being.

Way up to the tree tops,
As they spin,
I realize,
I will die for each energy,
as they for me.

Watching them pulse and sway,
I marvel at the synchronicity,
See in these tiny examples,
the coeternal dance of life.

The spirals and twists,
coexist with the vitality and energy,
emanating from my life blood.

The blood of the lamb,
the sacrifice to the eternal being,
preparing my heart,
for the sacred feast.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Chant of Metta(Loving Kindness)

The Buddha's Words on Kindness (Metta Sutta) This is what should be done By one who is skilled in goodness, And who knows the path of peace: Let them be able and upright, Straightforward and gentle in speech. Humble and not conceited, Contented and easily satisfied. Unburdened with duties and frugal in their ways. Peaceful and calm, and wise and skillful, Not proud and demanding in nature. Let them not do the slightest thing That the wise would later reprove. Wishing: In gladness and in saftey, May all beings be at ease. Whatever living beings there may be; Whether they are weak or strong, omitting none, The great or the mighty, medium, short or small, The seen and the unseen, Those living near and far away, Those born and to-be-born, May all beings be at ease! Let none deceive another, Or despise any being in any state. Let none through anger or ill-will Wish harm upon another. Even as a mother protects with her life Her child, her only child, So with a boundless heart Should one cherish all living beings: Radiating kindness over the entire world Spreading upwards to the skies, And downwards to the depths; Outwards and unbounded, Freed from hatred and ill-will. Whether standing or walking, seated or lying down Free from drowsiness, One should sustain this recollection. This is said to be the sublime abiding. By not holding to fixed views, The pure-hearted one, having clarity of vision, Being freed from all sense desires, Is not born again into this world.



Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Monday, April 11, 2011

Will

Will Power
Free Will
Strong Will
Will we be strong in our power of Free?
Free We’ll be
We’ll be free from Power
One’s life was spent with family, God and friends..
Another’s life was spent with family, drugs and friends…
Spending freely
Spending carelessly
Willing, Ready, How does the hole get so deep that you cannot see…
Blindly following… How does the hole get so deep that you cannot see?
Will You Have the Power to be Strong, Will WE??
I will.

Friday, April 8, 2011

The Boy in You

When I see you
I see the little boy,
Dreams you dreamed,
The look you have that searches my soul,
for acceptance and the approval.

The feeling it creates in me,
wanting to nurture and build,
and be that collapsible yet solid space,
for us to fall.

That kind bottomless sea of understanding,
into me sea,
All that we need,
all that we want,
always,
You don't have to pull my hair,
I see you unconditionally,
We love.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Aperture Investment Opportunity #2: "Bot Trust"

My son tweeted about this..lol.. ! :) Good job Robots!

Neil Young - Walk With Me (LYRICS) +Download {New Official Music}

Walk with me!

I feel the patience of unconditional love...

I'll never let you down, no matter what you do...

Monday, April 4, 2011

R.E.M. Losing My Religion

That's me in the corner, that's me in the spotlight losing my religion..

Thursday, March 31, 2011

P!nk - Glitter In The Air (GRAMMYs on CBS)

Please Pray for Dale Adney and Ellen and their new grandbaby coming in this world..one child born to carry on.

Shattered Heart
Posted 3 hours ago
2:30 ..About a hour ago I made the hardest phone call of my life. I placed a phone call to hospice. In so many ways it feels like giving up but I haven’t. I know God can still do a miracle. I’ve been told by the nurse at IU that hospice can actually help to extend the quality and the number of days a person has left.
The Dr. at IU said that they would do radiation on the tumor in Dale’s brain but there was nothing that could be done for the rest of his body. He explained that some of the speech problems and some of the movement problems on the right side are being made worse by the tumor and radiation will shrink it and there by taking pressure off the affected parts. Then he ask Dale if he was having head aches and he said he was. He had never said that to me, never complained about anything but his leg and one time his side.
He then said that I should call Hospice. I can’t put into words what making that phone call felt like. At one point all I could do was cry! I can’t imagine my life with out Dale. I tremble to think how my life may be different even one month from now.
3:45 The Social Worker was here from hospice. Filled out the paperwork and the nurse will come in the morning.
5:15 I’ve spent most of this afternoon just lying with Dale and watching TV. At one point, in tears I ask him if he was scared…..He looked down at me with the sweetest smile and said no. I said you know when God takes us from this life we go home to be with Him. We will see each other again.
A hard situation is made terribly worse by the fact that he can’t put words together. It’s so clear to me that he knows what he wants to say and he knows when it doesn’t come out right. Several times he tried to tell me something and the words just didn’t come and then he gives up. It breaks my heart not to be able to really talk to him about how he’s feeling and what's going through his mind.
I know God had a plan and that someday we will all be together in glory. I know that we will see each other again and when we all get“home” none of this will matter. But now, I’m trying not to question God’s will for Dale’s life but I must admit I’m having trouble understanding why the last days that we will spend together may be filled with not only the heartbreak of separation but the frustration over not being able to communicate.
I know I’m not alone and I know that I’m not the only to face this but……………
Please pray with me God’s will in all of this and pray that the radiation will help his words be clearer.
God, I know your watching and I’m trying to be strong. Help me to walk with your courage and to stand and face my enemy in your power! In you I will stand. I love you love and I know the only one who loves Dale more than me, is you.
Our granddaughter Alicia is in the hospital right now, in labor, giving life to our first great-grandchild! Praise Jesus!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Party of Five [Bailey&Sarah] - I'll Be

Party of File... I'll Be

XTC-Dear God

Wow..love this!

XTC-Grass

I love this song!

RaMaDaSa - Snatam Kaur - Love Vibration

When I hear this song, I feel the love vibration so strong,
I send it out and on its way to those I hold near and dear to my heart,
and to all....
Ra Ma Da Sa Sa Say So Ohmm...
I love you so much.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Dear Chase CEO

Chase Bank
James Dimon
Chairman and Chief Executive Officer
270 Park Avenue, 39th Floor
NY, NY 10017

Dear Mr. Dimon

I have been a banking customer at Chase since 1998 (13 years). I had a service fee show up on my account on 3/16/11. On Monday, 3/21 I called the original location (Hikes Point) where I signed up for my account and spoke with Joe. He assured me that the fee was an error and I was “grandfathered” in to an old program that Chase had called “Workplace checking”. He took my work and home number and said his manager was in a meeting but that he would get the refund approved and call me back. I never received a call back.

The next day I called again and asked to speak to Joe. He came on and I said that I assumed he was busy and was calling to remind him in case he didn’t get the credit applied. He informed me that the program that I was “grandfathered” into had been changed and now there was a minimum requirement of $500 in one deposit to have a free account. I asked him if the grandfather had died because I thought that being grandfathered into a program means that the program doesn’t change. He said that I would not be getting a refund of my $12, I had to come in to renegotiate a new plan and the manager was out of the office until Monday. I asked to speak to the assistant manager and she told me she could not do anything either.

I went to the offices on Westport Road and spoke to a manager there. She had another person sitting beside her observing. I explained to her everything that happened and asked her again if I could get a refund of the $12 and continue with my original account that I have had for 13 years. I was told I could not.

I hate to leave Chase, but I guess my business is not worth it to you. So, I will be leaving Chase and you can be sure that I will never recommend your company to anyone. I got my sister, my children and others to bank at your bank because I was so pleased with the years of good service.

The most ironic thing is, you will give your customers up to $5000 in matching deposits and yet you will not refund and honor a grandfathered program of a long term customer. Also, I receive so many mailers about how you will give people $100 to be a Chase banker. Well, I will make sure that any questions I have about chase will be greeted with your refusal to return my $12 and honor your “grandfathered” programs.


Thank you for listening as I get this off my chest and have a great day. I hope that you have fun chasing your customers out the door.

UPDATE: 3/30/11 - I got a call from the Chase Executive Offices today at around 1:00 p.m. They apologized that the branches would not give me a refund of my $12.00. Also, they said my letter would be in a database file for customer issues. They said that the monthly fees were a new policy and they would not be honoring any old policies and that the fee would apply to all future months if I did not meet the qualifications on the account.

This is a good effort on Chase's part. I appreciate their follow up. I will still be leaving the bank as I do not qualify for any of their accounts without a fee. It seems the "not monetarily wealthy" individual is of little consequence to Chase and they are very much looking out for their bottom line. I hope only the monetarily wealthy individuals grace your doorsteps from now on. Us little poor people will find a home somewhere. I do really appreciate getting my $12 back. Thank you Chase for your quick follow up and for the $12 bucks. I'll have a couple of lunches on you. :)

The Story of a Sign

YES!

Make You Smile Plus 44 Lyrics

If I could, I only want to make you smile! :)

You Make Me Smile Lyrics By Uncle Kracker

Two times, smile!! :)


Smile - Uncle Kracker (Lyrics In Description)

You are better than the best!!!

Cooler than the flip side of my pillow!!

Spin like a record crazy on a Sunday night.

You make me smile.

The Voice

You said I was just meant to be a voice in the midst,
In the crowd,
Amongst the sides,
blending in.
Well, guess what!
I am more than that,
OH Yes! So much more than that.
You didn’t know that I have found;
The Present you were looking for,
Bestowed upon me,
A gift!

Articulation,
Vocalization,
Illustration,
Communication,
You better take Dictation!

This is not a lecture,
Nor is it conjecture!

You said I was meant to be a small voice.
I am not just a voice in the crowd.
I am of the crowd but;
I am THE VOX
I am THE ONE

Do you need an interpreter?
Or is my vocalism clear?

UofL Cyber Defense Team 2011

Please click on this link to see my son who was in this: He's in the blue button up the front shirt and has a beard. I am proud! They did this for a few years. I am so excited they won first this year! :) YAY! You will have to copy and paste the link because I am challenged by not being able to establish a little blue link you can click on. Thanks for looking!

And, if any of you can post how to create one of those cool links, that would be extremely kind and helpful. :) Thanks again and have a Happy Tuesday in March 2011.

http://louisville.edu/speed/computer/spotlights/uofl-cyber-defense-team-2011.html

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Miss Mitzi Gaynor - Let Go !

Awwwwww...SWEET...it's back!~!~! MMMMmMMMMmMMMMmmMMMMmMMMMmmmmmmmmm

Hold back hold back
LET GO!

Friday, March 11, 2011

Piece of Peace

Let me! Make me a channel of your peace....
Make me a vessel of your truth..
Where there is doubting let me show faith...
Make me a channel of your peace..

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Financial Success

You didn't reallly want my friendship;
Tho' I gave it freely.

You didn't really want my love;
Tho' I gave it freely.

You didn't really want my compassion;
Tho' I gave it freely.

You didn't really want my kindness;
Tho' I gave it freely

I didn't understand how you could not want it,
Until I understood you thought it came with a price.

Friendship, Love, Compassion and Kindness are priceless.

I would never charge you for what I give.

I never feel hurt for what you cannot accept because
Your not accepting "what is" is out of my control.

The expense of not accepting is a deficit on your spreadsheet, not mine.
It's good business practice to adjust your budget for windfalls!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

The wonderful times we've had

The wonderful times we’ve had. Us, skimming just above the water so fast, me holding tightly against you as you fly me across the skies. It’s a beautiful position to be holding on to you heart to heart and getting to look into your eyes as you look ahead to see where we are going. The feel of the wind in our face which sometimes takes my breath away and I have to lean my head into the spot just below your neck. I think you like that because I always feel your chin and cheek caressing the side and top of my head.

How you made me laugh when you made the piece of the bridge go in and out. How we laughed at the police cars lined up with their radios buzzing, not believing what they saw. Oh those were such fun times.

And the time you said, this is how you talk in the Mic!! Oh my Gosh,you are so bad and that was so funny. I laughed and laughed and bounced up and down on the bed. I woke myself laughing! I love your sense of humor. I love your kindness. I love your ability to love me even though you know all about my imperfect life. Thanks for letting me ride on the magic carpet of our love!

The time you let me come in the room with the musicians and sit in the back and listen really made me feel special. I have never felt that someone of your caliber would even give me a second glance and yet you are so kind to take me to places like this and allow me to be a queen for a moment. It’s beyond my words to describe the feelings that you have sparked in me.

I see you looking at the walking path. I saw you clearly the day you had me follow you. I hear the noises you make and see the magical things you present to me there. It's our special place and always will be.

I enjoy the hugs and the stolen kisses and dancing the three of us in the clouds when you and I first met. I will never forget the peace when I woke up the first night you held me all night.

The time I came over with the pizza and you showed me all your various projects. You are such an interesting man. I do not know what you see in me! But, whatever it is, I am so glad you see it! You make me want to be the best person in the entire universe. I like that so much because I have never wanted to be better and worthy, like I want that now. I am worthy, I know that. You show me every day. I show me every day.

I know you see me crying. Don’t worry about it, I have to have all the range of emotions. All are important and it doesn’t mean anything except that I am expelling all the pain and sorrow I have had so I can be completely whole again.  That’s a good thing.

I know you are busy. I appreciate so much anytime you spend with me. I am honored when you take the time to do so. I hope I show my love and gratitude enough and that you always feel it with you no matter who you are with and what you are doing.  I am happy that you understand and allow me to be me. Not holding at all is the most beautiful way to live! Let Go and Let Life happen!  Definitely time for Mitzi!

Mitzi Gaynor - I'm Just A Cockeyed Optimist

Mitzi Gaynor -( I'm In Love With) A Wonderful Guy

Mitzi Gaynor Tribute

i can finally see that you're right there beside me

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Enya - Only Time

Enya

Enya - Athair Ar Neamh

Words

Loreena McKennitt - Dante's Prayer

My

Enya-Boadicea

Bury

Enya - China Roses

Can

Peace love && happiness

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When you and I are alone, Ive never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
*Only time*, only time


Into the Light

As I walk out of the fog and into the light,
the experiences behind me weave together,
as I pulled out all the beauty and positivity,
from my experiences past; focusing on those
I create
My present
and plan for my future.

The heavy burden of addictions are what eats away at our soul like the parasites they are. They say, "You can handle it", "It's okay, you're strong, one won't hurt" "Why not?!"

They go into your mind and prey on your weakest areas. They know your weakness because they have been around for thousands of years.

Clarity and meditation help to alleviate the confusion that they desire to create. They are always looking for an in and it's never "game over".

Enya - Watermark

The first picture on this with the yellow and bird. That is me..that is the perfect picture for me. It brings me peace. I love yellow and I love birds and I love the sun and I love happiness and peace and the world and the universe and life and breath and everything from a to z and from the beginning and to the end, amen.

Angels

Mother's Blessing_Snatam Kaur

Tania Kassis - Islamo-Christian AVE (Official Clip) -- Cd available at V...

GOOSEBUMPS>>> Wow,the true beauty in combining and coming together!


Luther Vandross- Superstar/Don't you remember Lyrics

Friday, February 25, 2011

Paul Simon: A simple desultory philippic

Paul Simon - The Only Living Boy in New York

Paul Simon - The Sound Of Silence

Hello Darkness my old friend...


Johnny Cash - One (U2 Cover - With Lyrics)

Did I dissappoint you or leave a bad taste in your mouth,
You act like you never had love,
and you want me to go without...

Too late, tonight to drag the past out into the night,
We're one but we're not the same..we get to ..
Carry each other,
Carry each other...



Hope

Hope was so cute
She was small
She brought smiles
She had a home.
Hope was a joy

Life got busy
Hope masticated
Hope got a cage
Enthusiasm waned
There were other things to do
Hope got shuffled aside.

Brought in to deal with other problems
And she just added to the problem.

She was neglected
She was kicked
She was mistreated
She was lost
She was found
She was given away
Taken to a place where she could be with more hope
Hopefully, life was better
Hope got sick
Hope died.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Acquiescent Heart

I have an acquiescent heart
Its tenderness is as delicate as a flower
Its strength is as tough as a mighty warrior
My heart is protected by God
He alone rebuilds it after it’s been broken
He alone directs my love,
For if not for him,
I would have no heart.

My heart goes to places unknown
Places that I never even dreamed;
Impossible places to my lowly eyes,
But places that are my destiny in life.

My heart loves where it loves,
To varying degrees but always,
With love.

My heart is able to give love unconditionally,
Without regard for a return and upon the need,
My unconditional love will always be with you,
Even if the physical reality is never meant to be.

Reality creates darkness,
That creates blindness,
That creates the place,
Where you can no longer see,
Which creates the iniquity,
Where you cannot feel my love.

My heart breaks but will go on,
My heart will because I am eternal,
When you come out of this darkness,
You will see, that my love was always meant to be.

My acquiescent heart,
My most tender bud,
The root of my soul,
You are my love.

Merkabah, The Chariot of Ascension

Owl City - Fireflies

Learning to Dance.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Friday, February 18, 2011

Desiderata - Translation

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember
What peace can be found in silence.
As soon as possible, without surrender,
on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant, they too have their story.
Dodge loud and aggressive persons,
because they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you will become
vain and bitter;
there will always be people
larger and smaller than you.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career
however humble,
it is a real treasure
in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business
for the world is full of trickery
But let this not blind you
to what virtue there.
There are many people who strive
for high ideals.
Life is full of heroism.
Be honest with yourself,
Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
because in the midst of all aridity and disenchantment
is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit
to shield you in sudden misfortune.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe.
No less than the trees and the stars
have a right to exist.
And it is clear to you or not
doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God
whatever you conceive Him
And whatever your labors and aspirations, keep peace with your soul
in the noisy confusion of life.
With all its falseness, their pain and broken dreams, the world is still beautiful.
Be careful, strive to be happy!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Friday, February 11, 2011

Family Stories

This is a piece of my family history. A very interesting story that I am going to share. :)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Lion Heart - I really like this one.

Lion heart
Though I’ve never met a lion, I’ve felt him in my heart, his strength, his courage, even his bare feet on the jungle floor.

Though I’ve never met a lion, I’ve smelled the odor of his prey, while he hunts, my eyes have glanced his next meal, I’ve saddled his back in his hundred mile per hour chase to satisfy his hunger.

Even though I’ve never met a lion, my ego has peaked knowing I’m king, caring and protecting my pride, loving my people all as #1, strengthening the roar of my daughters and sons.

Although I haven’t met a lion, my mind knows lying in the shade of a tree, brings us both at peace as a silent brook.

If I were to ever met a lion, I would stare into his eyes, for that would be a window into my soul.

From mountain tops I’ll be proud to say I'M LION HEART>
By
Bernadette Joseph

Monday, February 7, 2011

Immortal - Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows

LOL!

The Great Dictator - Charlie Chaplin - Final speech and ending

A soldier fighting for an end to slavery..of all kinds.
Brutes LIE, they do not fulfill that promise, they never will.

Judy Garland - Over the Rainbow 1955

judy garland, frank sinatra and dean martin

Wow, Valentine's Day is coming...and I am alone...wow, still like love songs. And, not too terribly unhappy...except when I ball my eyes out, other than that, I am fine.

Judy Garland & Barbra Streisand - Horray for Love

Wow, this is nice..I had no idea...I love You Tube!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Undercurrents

Love is not the rapids,
It is the undercurrent,
Steady and flowing,
quiet,
not seeking,
moving along with the flow,
of many droplets set together,
Reach your hand in,
Feel the ripple of love,
gently sent to you.

Humpty Dumpty

Dropped,
Shattered,
A million shards,
trying to pick up the pieces,
Clattered;
Scattered,
Chaos,
Clutter.

Frantically,
On my Knees;
Bobs of me;
Tears;
Frustration;
Failure;
Defeat,
Balled upon the ground,
In broken bits,
of me....
Stillness.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Water, Consciousness & Intent: Dr. Masaru Emoto

Sara Bareilles Let The Rain Lyrics

Speaking my truth, being fearless....

Moving molding, setting free..

I want the water in my eyes, I want the water in my eyes, let the rain come down!! ...

Make a brand new ground!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek (With Lyrics)

Frou Frou-Let Go Lyrics

Spirit of the Trees

By intention, the earth planted the trees,
Where they went was carried by the spirit of life,
Now we try to design our trees,
One by,
One by,
One by,
One...

Uprooting them if they are, "too big, too close, too messy, too shady",
Replanting new;
Discarding old,
Can't we hear the spirit of the tree?
Can't we feel it dying silently?
When will we stop being,
aesthetically pleasing?

The 12 Laws of Karma

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Monday, January 24, 2011

Anonymous

I fight the demons daily,
Your sadness touches my soul in the deepest places,
I become your sorrow as I pour out the tears of pain,
My deepest divinity honors your deepest divinity,
I sit with you in the silence of our connection,
No Words, No Time, No Need, Nothing,
Just this,
Breath held and then released,
For YOU.

Thank you for the honor of adorning your life in this small way,
I am humbled,
This brings me such joy,
the gift not given,
or expected,
but cherished in the un-knowing of the giving.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Mirabai Ceiba: A Hundred Blessings

Gravity

It holds things down,
including our crown,
We are like a civilization underwater
breathing but not surfacing,
living but not living,
What will it take to break the chains that bind us?
What will it take to get us in the flow of life?
What will it take to understand?
All that we can understand,
How long?

We have nothing but Time, so get started! :)
As in the beginning, so is the end, and on we go...
Get in the flow!

RaMaDaSa - Snatam Kaur - Love Vibration

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Entanglement

Threads, Dust, Hairs, Particles
Wound over time
trying to keep clear
swept up in the work
tangled tightly
weaved deeply
wads of entanglements
work to unthread
fight to unfold
patience and tedious pulling,
stringing, lifting
finally cutting away
slicing through the heart
to clear out the mess
to start to wind again
unclear how it starts...
Sure that it will become again.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

For You, this is How I Love

I find my happiness and my best in loving you.

The kind of love that stands back and allows you to be yourself all the while feeling you in me and me in you.

The kind of love that sees the best in you and builds that up.

The kind of love that makes me dizzy when you speak and speechless with your words.

The kind of love that makes me fall asleep to your voice.

The kind of love that makes me want to hover over you, watching and protecting.

The kind of love that makes my knees weak and my clumsiness show.

The kind of love that my love flows through you like a river.

The kind of love where nothing is asked, nothing expected just my heart loving yours.

The kind of love that wants you to never feel guilty, just happy in my love for you.

The kind of love that I would lay down my life for you.

I love you more than words, time, space, eternity.

Friday, January 7, 2011

The Dream of Pizza and Togetherness

I came to the door. It was unlocked and I just walked in. I am not sure why I did this but it felt very natural to me. I had a box of pizza in my hand. The box was large, white and held a tray of pizza. Pizza like what you would get at Frenchies or somewhere like that. It was the generic flimsy cheap box with no writing on it and lots of grease staining the bottom. It was a cheese pizza.


The entry foyer was rectangular and the stairs were along the wall. The walls were white. There was a hand rail and no carpet, just flooring. At the top of the stairs was a hall that went off to the right and one door at the end of the hall. You came out and glided down the hall and half way down the stairs.

You were into yourself. You looked like a robot and looked very self absorbed. When you looked up about half way down the stairs, you were startled that I had been so bold as to just walk in. You stared at me and changed into something else. You were not angry so much as surprised and taken aback. I was extremely embarassed that I had just walked in like that. It wasn't in my nature to do that and I was so shocked at my boldness. You were very kind. We walked up the stairs, you in front of me.

By the time we got up to your place, you were back to being yourself. It was like we had known each other forever. We were very comfortable with each other. I was excited to be there and to talk to you. You were happy that I was there too. I set the pizza on your table which was cluttered with things. You had organized clutter and the place felt warm with your presence and your essence. I was looking forward to having pizza with you. We were happy.

We talked a lot and tinkered with things you were working on. You showed me so much about you and your life. The time went by fast.

I woke up before the dream was over. I never got to eat the pizza with you.

I lay there for a while and felt at peace. I drifted back into a restful sleep.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Action

The pain of actions
taken
Actions that lead to reactions
that lead to creations
that lead to recreation
that lead to destruction

Sure keep doing the action
and follow the destruction

No two paths except one path
and make yourself be the path
what does it matter?
We already did it.

It's too late
too little, too late
Laugh in the forest
At the Dead Monkeys
Trying to save what's already gone
But, you didn't know.

It is NOT GONE
God IS
I AM
We are ALL.

Light
Right
Night
Fight
Sight
Alright!

Calling All Angels- Train

Eminem - Not Afraid