Monday, November 29, 2010


You said to me once, "You're an attractive woman, I could date you."
Dates like numbers;
on a calendar;
You can't date me,
WE are Timeless.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

A Glimpse of a beautiful dream

I had the most beautiful dream last night but it was cut so short because a car alarm went off right in the midst of it.

I dreamed that I saw a girl who was from Beverly Hills, Tennessee and she was so beautiful and delicate. She didn't have much growing up but she was just a pleasure to see. I didn't talk to her, I just knew her story somehow. I wish I could remember more about this but she was in line at a buffet and getting food and that is all I remember.

After that, I was in a large open universe. It wasn't a room it was all the world and I was knealing alone in this vast expanse. God was in front of me and I had the most extraordinary feeling of reverence, humility and love. Then, the car alarm went off and I woke up! Oh..I wanted to stay there so much.

It was a nice dream..after many tears, sometimes I have the most comforting dreams. This year is so difficult for me. I am not the person I used to be and I know that I will never be that person again. I grieve for myself, for my mistakes, for the pain I am causing everyone. I just live with sorrow. I don't mind it, it reminds me that I am very small and very fragile.

I am not going to say I am hopeful for the future because I know I will be stronger and I know that my future is bright. I know that I will live with this sorrow for the rest of my life. I want to believe there will be joy in there too but sometimes I can't see it, or feel it..I just feel numbness or sadness.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Imogen Heap-Speeding Cars

Imogen Heap - Hide And Seek

Linkin Park - Numb

Linkin Park- In The End- Soothing, Relaxing Music

WE foible and fumble around because we don't realize what we are. Religions don't help either they just provide us a false sense of well being. If it doesn't come from the heart then it is just a part of the illusion.

Thursday, November 4, 2010


As I sit in the sun and feel the rays of the sun, I look at the fruit on my plate and see the peach glistens when the sun's rays shine on it. Do I glisten in the sun? Do rays spark off my being and soul and shine for those who see me? What can I become? Anyone can be a genius. Anyone can be complete in themself. I want be complete in myself.

I hold so tightly to my need to write that right now my hand cramps up as I strain to express all my feelings.

The way the small plant pushes through the sidewalk and creates an area for itself. Everyone needs to create their space for themself!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Political Mess

Yes, what a mess
Eenie, Meenie, Minie, MO
Pick one, or pick four
Who Cares? Who researches
Which one will win in the lies?
What lies behind it all?
Eenie, Meenie, Minie, MO
Go Vote Bro.